Monday, December 31, 2001

Saturday, December 29, 2001

Yakra (to Frog): It's time you jumped off this mortal coil!

Hehe, Hamlet reference in Chrono Trigger ^_^

Friday, December 28, 2001

I like the anime pic background on the website. =) It's neato!!

Dang right, GIMME YOUR FOOD! =P

Thursday, December 27, 2001

I took

At this particular time you are perhaps setting yourself a too high a target and so you are living in the land of "make believe". It would also seem that you have been bitterly disappointed in the past - and you are at a stage where you feel that you can trust nobody You would like to forget it all and turn your back on the past and start anew ...

You are working extremely hard trying to improve your image. You need for those people in positions that matter to recognise your potential and to acknowledge you.

You are very demanding ... and insisting on total involvement ..but you do not reciprocate with the same depth of feeling. However, it could well be that maybe an unprecedented surprise is awaiting you in the near future ... for just as one, whilst paddling in the sea, could flounder into a whirlpool, so you may be drawn into a loving situation that has high emotional demands and you could well respond with a depth emotion that you never even dreamed that you possessed...

Having experienced considerable disappointment of late and not knowing quite what to do about it this has led you to suffer a great deal of agitation and anxiety.You are trying very hard to make favourable impressions all round. You feel that you have a right to do anything that you wish without being condemned for your beliefs. Everything seems to be going against you and you feel helpless to change the situation. The possibility of failure is most upsetting and this situation is leading to untold stress ... You honestly believe that the situation is not of your making - it is not your fault. You have been misled and abused by those that you trusted. But you are trying to look at the situation quite dispassionately. Would you perhaps not agree that this situation could be regarded as unrealistic self justification?.

You are worn out and lack both physical and mental energy. This lack of vitality has created an intolerance for any further excitement and you feel that you just carry on .. but you have been like that many times before and the situation passed.. You again need to get away from it all.... even if it is only for a little while. A relaxed body cannot contain a destructive emotion ... and the secret for you is to just relax ...

It's pretty accurate, I think.

Monday, December 24, 2001

Color the Children

When I was just a little child, there was a Christmas day
That I remember, December, it seems one yesterday away
Now the little child is gone, i've grown, i've changed,
And yet memories still linger on for children don't forget
So, color the children with mistletoe white
Little brown reindeer that fly through the night
Color them Christmas with love and concern
For once they gone, they'll never return
Color them cookies that grandmother made
Santa ho-hoing in Macy's parade
Color them Christmas with love and concern
For once they gone they'll never return

music by-??? lyrics by-???

the elipses are parts of the lyrics I'm missing =( Story of my life. Merry Christmas (Eve) ya'll.

Saturday, December 22, 2001

I watched The Fellowship of the I want to read all the books, even if it is just to find out what happens. Psshh, all Sarah could talk about was how hot Legolas was =P Silly girl. I have to admit, Bloom plays a very convincing elf. I like the movie, even though the ending is craptacular.
heck yea! I always said Scheherezade was underrated!!

If I were a Dead Russian Composer, I would be Nikolai Rimsky-Korsakov.

Considered the leader of the 19th Century Composer group "The Mighty Handful," I am indeed the teacher among them. My orchestration skills are superbly colorful, and are explained in my book on the topic, but works like "Scheherezade" explain my mastery better.

Who would you be? Dead Russian Composer Personality Test

hahahahahaha, I had the funniest dream =P Courtney K was telling me about her date to formal: a guy from UCLA who's oh-so-cute ahh! We're waiting by the school planters so he can pick her up for a pre-formal date, and guess who's her date.... scott, the aqt coach! HAHAHAHA, it was sooo hilarious. Brendan was in scott's car for some reason, and he was trying really hard not to laugh. While Brendan and I were standing by Scott and Courtney, Scott was acting like a total doofus, pissing off Courtney. But after we left and hid behind some other planters, Scott turned on the charm and charmed the heck out of Courtney =P She was makin googly eyes, aww. Meanwhile, the AQT team was hiding behind various planters and laughing and laughing and hehe ^_^

Friday, December 21, 2001

Today was dull. All I did was sit though classes munching away on food I really didn't want to eat; I was so bored I turned to eating. Bleh. Oh well. Hopefully the piano workshop will lighten my spirits; the winter holiday one usually does. =) Ach, it hurts to smile. =(

Wednesday, December 19, 2001

Heeeeey, Katherine is accepted to Harvard too! How awesome! =) Philip filled me in yesterday. Ack, he also said she'd rather go to Curtis, a piano conservatory. She switched from wanting to be a doctor to wanting to be a pianist.

Monday, December 17, 2001

Bleh. I felt so frustrated with myself that I was about to allow myself a good cry while walking to my piano teacher's house. Unfortunately, I only teared up a 'lil bit. Geez, I extract more tears when I stub my toe. I used to be really maudlin about everything; I'd cry about something at least once a week.'s really hard for me to force myself to cry. I can't do it any more. I often vented all my anger through crying, but now I'm bottling everything up inside of me. I'm gonna burst one day, and Apezilla is gonna wreak havok on Tokyo (or Colin's house).

Anyway, I had a fun piano lesson. I sang/heard Christmas carols most of the time. Muy divertido. =)

Every time I read Kevin's blog, I want to cry. It hurts, it wrings my stomach; the worst part is, I don't know/can't do anything to help! Gaaaah, I hate feeling so utterly useless. Argh, best to both, dammit.

Oh yea, Mano got into UPenn, w00t w00t! =P Ahh, talk about a bittersweet day.

Saturday, December 15, 2001

This is a bit late, but CONGRATS. Geez, wow, Michael got into Harvard, hooray! =)

Bleh, I had about $160 to spend, and after holiday shopping I only have $20. Crazy. Stupid stupid mall and stupid stupid me for spending so much money. Now I'm going to have to wear a potato sack to formal. Yaay.

Tuesday, December 11, 2001

The people who run Mission Viejo MUN are scary O.O Take a look, or check it out yourself :

J--- H------, 2001-2002 MVHS MUN Secretary General, is an active student at Mission Viejo High School. Class co-valedictorian, he is a National Merit Semi-Finalist and scored a 1600 on the SAT I. He is President of the National Honor Society, a member of the Mock Trial and Academic Decathlon Teams, and plays in the school's Wind Ensemble and Symphony Orchestra. He is team captain of boy's tennis as well. He plans to attend Harvard University in the Fall.

F---- Y- (don't worry, he's asian), 2001-2002 MVHS MUN Under-Secretary General, is also a very accomplished individual. He is the Co-Valedictorian of the 2002 Class at Mission Viejo High School, scored a 1600 on the SAT I and is an incredibly talented violin player. He has also been accepted to California's All-State and All-Southern High School Honors Orchestra for the past three years, and is a National-Merit Semi-Finalist. Felix is also a Varsity hurdler. He plans to attend either the Massachusetts Institute of Technology or Harvard University in the Fall.

I suddenly don't feel so well about applications >.<

Monday, December 10, 2001

Went holiday shopping this weekend, to be politically correct. Errrr, in May, when i bought my brother a birthday present, he was a little miffed I bought him a gift that I could use and wanted to use as well. So, when choosing between Chrono Cross and Parasite Eve for my brother, I chose Parasite Eve, although Chrono Cross is a better game in all aspects. Chrono Cross is only 3rd - 5th on my brother's awesome-games list, so I figured Parasite Eve was up on top somewhere. Unfortunately, I confused Parasite Eve with Valkyrie Profile or Vagrant Story or something, cuz it turns out he'd rather have Chrono Cross. Blargh, oh well, it's my fault for not listening carefully enough.

My weekend was fantabulistic! The details of the AQT scrimmage are in Linda's blog; she described them pretty completely. I'd insert something really stupid here if it weren't yucky and "unlike me". Aaah, what the heck, I'll say it anyway. Hmmm, but why was a strawberry-scented condom wrapped in green foil? The mysteries of life.

Hmmm, I'll blog about reunion later.

Friday, December 07, 2001

I was laughing out of mirth and crying out of the sorrow at the same time, ha
The day started out so beautifully. Why couldn't it have continued beautifully? =(

The sunrise glided through some lovely colors: lavender, rose, pink-gold, gray-green, white, then full on gold-orange. I didn't turn on any of the lights in order to watch the swift yet very gradual color changes. Errrr, the rest of my day went downhill from there.

I'll just say my family is messed up. Gah, what else can I say, everyone has their family problems. I'm stuck between my fiery father and my just as passionate brother. Igh, I hate playing mediator, although I do getta power trip, mwahahaha. =P

I often forget that everyone has some duality or depth that I do not and will not learn about. There are probably about 15 people who reaaaaally know my brother's whole personality, my mom not included. I'm only able to see the opaque film across over most people's liquid identities. Yes, they're liquid, ever-changing, ever-flowing, nebulous, and hard to grasp. People aren't made out of paper like flat and two-dimensional stock characters, but have their own idiosyncracies, own quirks, own philosophies, whether they be conscious or sub-conscious.

At least, I think they are. Am I right? Or is my company comprised only of truely amazing people?

Anyway, I often forget that.

Thursday, December 06, 2001

This site says everything about Maaya Sakamoto I was unable to say.
I ate dinner at 3:30 AM, while my brother was eating breakfast =/ I still have lots of hw + MUN + piano work to do, so I'll blog later.

Maaya Sakamoto is a really talented singer. Actually, scratch that. She isn't talented; her voice is only slightly above plain. In that respect, she must have worked really freakin hard to become as popular as she is now, which is what I admire about her. Yes, Stephen will probably correct me and say that she really isn't that popular, and that I'm misinformed. Fine, fine. I just really admire her singing. I really dislike singers who have a beautiful voice *but* can't sing without a couple missed pitches or unintentional key changes. Maaya also has an awesome range, one that I could never attain in this life or the next. Hm, strange, there are a lot of French websites about her.

Monday, December 03, 2001

Took the frog test which Vicky linked. =) Result:

You are a Pacific Tree Frog

Pacific Tree Frogs like to eat a variety of bugs, including crickets, flies and spiders, though they aren't fond of larger beetles that can bite their lips. Courting males have a high pitched ribbit that is often heard as the classic Hollywood "woods at night" sound effect. Pacific Tree Frogs tend not to climb as much or high as most tree frogs, usually not going more than two feet up into vegetation.