Saturday, November 13, 2004

=O i'm liking these "quizzes"! filched from andrew's ...livejournalthing.

Your Ultimate One Night Stand... by crispnite
LJ Username
Favorite animal
You invite over...
They bring...
You talk about...
You end up...watching porn
Quiz created with MemeGen!

What Is Your Best Sexual Skill?
Flirting Skill Level - 55%
Kissing Skill Level - 71%
Cudding Skill Level - 79%
Sex Skill Level - 94%
Why They Love You You keep going and going and going...
Why They Hate You You're too good to be true.
This fun quiz by lady_wintermoon - Taken 983232 Times.
New - Kwiz.Biz Astrology and Horoscopes

How to make a applecority

1 part anger

5 parts self-sufficiency

3 parts leadership
Stir together in a glass tumbler with a salted rim. Add caring to taste! Do not overindulge!
This is for andrew.

alex called todayyyy! finally, no more phone tag. yes, she's interested in taking her piano students back. i am happy =D oooh, i hope she has christmas workshop =D =D =D =D

i failed my chem test today. two in a row! let's see if i can go for more.

sonja talked to me 'til 5 am =) my roomie is the bestest. she helped me feel better about myself.

things are crazy.

Saturday, September 11, 2004

deaths of children in Russia

Tuesday, August 31, 2004

i want to live my life over and be a hunter! no, i haven't been watching too much anime =P i just mean... too many people and too "leisurely" a life, you know? agression has to go somewhere... lots of it, too... it's what i use to fuel most everything, school included. It's not a very stable fuel though; stupid happiness/serenity always comes in to interject. BUT! that's the way human society wanted to form itself (naturally), encouraging security and safety to be topmost priority along with a stable (but now much more than ample) food supply.

And if you can gorge yourself while you can, why wouldn't you? It's what animals do.

soo...i guess... it's not human error, that stupidity... serving ourselves past necesity, way beyond hedonistic desires, to the point of habit and dullness... it's just human error to ignore the amount of waste being created.

just . ha.

ANYWAY, where was i starting from? right! a hunter! and die at 14 from being clumsy or something. not running fast enough. i can see myself doing that. i think i would be much happier.

yes, i'm vague, and also too lazy to cut and paste this into my other blog.
hmm. Advice worth paying mind, but written in a way that makes me want to swear at the author. Bet this one's voting for Bush.

... don't remember a madding crowd searching for save-the-spotted-owl careers.

Thursday, August 19, 2004 - go to the colour project
I very much like brown, blue, green, yellow, orange, and red.

Monday, August 09, 2004

i decided to try writing something andrew-style. i'm not quite there yet. not even close. (andrew uses much more and much higher quality imagery... and randomness).

if it is ART

we are all trying to find depth
any depth
just some depth, anywhere
thus we create
because, if we're able to create well, we're deep, right?
create new rivulets of thought
new stimulations of emotion
or perhaps re-invent ideas already invented
understanding abstractions hardly understood

why depth?
so you know you're real
not just a fetus born from society's fetus
aren't we all fetuses?
then someone comes and pulls the emotions out
like the tides! it's gravitational, literally
and then i decide

why do i decide then
that I'M REAL?

is it that you make me feel deep?

'course. you've found a depth i never knew i had.

even when i was probing.
into me.
satisfying, yet never satisfied.

only imagined.
and in my imaginings, it wasn't the same.
silly life.

then it is SCIENCE.

to better understanding!
What happened to voting for a candidate in which we believe? At any rate, 'tis an interesting site.

I found this "About the Author" section in the back of Isaac Asimov's The Robots of Dawn:

"Isaac Asimov was born in the Soviet Union to his great surprise. He moved quickly to correct the situation. When his parents emigrated to the United States, Isaac (three years old at the time) stowed away in their baggage. He has been an American citizen since the age of eight.

"Brought up in Brooklyn, and educated in its public schools, he eventually found his way to Columbia University and, over the protests of the school administration, managed to annex a series of degrees in chemistry, up to and including a Ph.D. He then infiltrated Boston University and climbed the academic ladder, ignoring all cries of outrage, until he found himself Professor of Biochemistry.

"Meanwhile, at the age of nine, he found the love of his life (in the inanimate sense) when he discovered his first science-fiction magazine. By the time he was eleven, he began to write stories, and at eighteen, he actually worked up the nerve to submit one. It was rejected. After four long months of tribulation and suffering, he sold his first story and, thereafter, he never looked back.

"In 1941, when he was twenty-one years old, he wrote the classic short story 'Nightfall' and his future was assured. Shortly before that he had begun writing his robot stories, and shortly after that he had begun his Foundation series.

"What was left except quantity? At the present time, he has published over 260 books, distributed through every major division of the Dewey system of library classification, and shows no signs of slowing up. He remains as youthful, as lively, and as lovable as ever, and grows more handsome with each year. You can be sure that this is so since he has written this little essay himself and his devotion to absolute objectivity is notorious.

"He is married to Janet Jeppson, psychiatrist and writer, has two children by a previous marriage, and lives in New York City."

Publisher: Ballantine Books, New York. Copyright 1983.

Friday, July 23, 2004

maturity is not letting yourself be helpless

Monday, May 03, 2004

here's a good link explaining cartilage infections (and in some cases, treating)
it also explains hearing loss due to piercing is highly unlikely (phew)

Tuesday, April 27, 2004

Yay, I finally got cartilage piercings in my ears! did it last sunday. Anyway, I've heard rumors that infection in cartilage piercings can lead to deafness and blindness (yikes), but I haven't found any articles/studies that expressly draw that conclusion. Just in case, here a couple links explaining in layman's terms how your piercing heals and how to take care of it.

Thorough ~ Advice and Explanations
Piercing Care and Precautions
Less Formal ~ Risks, History, and Care

Personally, I'm more than a little careless when it comes to taking care of myself, luckily para mi, I was informed of the serious risk of infection early (thanks Vic).

Abbreviated summary of care (this is mostly for me so I don't forget):
- no ear piercing guns: needle can't be changed, beware blood-borne microorganisms
- clean with antiseptic as often as recommended (for cartilage- two to three times a day, 8 - 12 months)
- keep free of shampoo, hair gel, hairspray, perfume, etc. etc. etc. any chemicals
- clean with water/antiseptic after using any of the above chemicals or exercising (sweating)
- no public phones. disinfect own phone.
- keep pillowcase/sheets clean and changed frequently (::weep::)
-avoid sleeping on piercing (this one's a pain... i enjoy sleeping in fetus-position)
- don't pick at crust. that's like picking at a scab

Oh, the links also explain how to take care of infected piercings. The first link even explains what the different colors of pus mean! =D I like that. I also like looking at the color of my snot/urine to see how well I've been eating/ how ill I actually am.
Note to self: post that on blog later.

Monday, April 19, 2004

I saw Christopher Walken near UCLA! at the "Man On Fire" premiere. Neil "met" him.... and by "met" I mean almost screamed at him from a moving car.

Lawrence locked the windows =P

Wednesday, March 17, 2004

waitaminutewaitaminute, what am i talking about... sarah introduced me to my looooove of blueberries~

Friday, March 12, 2004

i can see myself turning into my dad more and more every day... it's really scary...

Thursday, March 11, 2004

anime rips people apart

AprilMaieOktovar (7:17:54 PM): um, colin...
AprilMaieOktovar (7:17:59 PM): there's something i need to tell you...
JavaColin (7:18:04 PM): you're fat?
JavaColin (7:18:14 PM): what isit
AprilMaieOktovar (7:18:23 PM): it's more serious than that
AprilMaieOktovar (7:18:25 PM): i've kinda developed a great liking for yu-gi-oh while you were gone...
JavaColin (7:18:31 PM): oh man
JavaColin (7:18:36 PM): you're SO FUCKING DEAD
JavaColin (7:18:40 PM): i'm bringing my KNIFE
JavaColin (7:18:43 PM): GOOD BYE
AprilMaieOktovar (7:19:23 PM): =(
JavaColin (7:21:38 PM): ::kishhhhhhh::
AprilMaieOktovar (7:21:54 PM): you said good bye =(
JavaColin (7:22:03 PM): you betrayed me =(
AprilMaieOktovar (7:22:23 PM): ::weepp::

Tuesday, March 02, 2004

Thought of the day: Since human growth hormone is right under the skin, it's only natural people want to be touched. In fact, we should all go and get rubbed and ::rubbbbbed:: and patted 'n petted for a natural high. GO! GO NOW! GET TOUCHED!

Sunday, February 22, 2004

hehehe, my grandma is giving encouragement to the monsters in andrew's monster rancher game.

"catch him with your hands!"

Thought of the day: I need to get off my lazy ass and study more.

Saturday, February 21, 2004

Thought of the day: I want to watch Hudson Hawk... with cau!

Thursday, February 19, 2004

The words the DJ used to describe KUSC's "Heavenly Adagios" collection were erotic, sexy, and who-needs-Viagra? O.o Well, I do wonder about the aphrodisiacal effects of classical music...

Thought of the day: I want to be a KUSC DJ!

Monday, February 16, 2004

Last night I dreamt that Sarah sent me something through the mail for the last time. It was even labeled "the last..." I love how she used to send me stuff through the postal service even though she lived a few houses down.

I regret not doing more for her. Sarah was so genuinely nice... she actually bought me blueberries once! I...yea. Perhaps my thoughts on this will be more coherent later. Or perhaps not.

Friday, January 16, 2004


i just needed a smile.

Friday, January 02, 2004

"What is understanding when it's too late?"