Thursday, February 21, 2002

Once I thought that death was only the act of dying
Leaving those alive helpless, alone and crying.
But now I understand its how, when, and why,
Which can all be expressed as "We're all going to die!"
Beware the Heat Death!, my fair physicked friend
Entropy constantly brings us nearer to the end!
Beware the Heat Death! Not even the professor's weight
Can prevent us from enetering a more disorderly state.
Beware the Heat Death! These are my last words to you;
The Delta-S will kill us all! There is nothing we can do!

- done in 5 minutes by the crazy slick fizziks man

Wednesday, February 20, 2002

Your Results:

You were male in your last earthly incarnation.

You were born somewhere around the territory of what is now know as modern Wales, approximately in the year 1300.

Your profession was: chemist, alchemist, poison manufacturer. (mwahaha)

A brief psychological profile of you in that past life:
You always liked to travel, to investigate, could have been detective or spy.

A lesson that your last past life wishes you to learn in your present life is:
Your lesson -- to conquer jealousy and anger in yourself and then in those, who will select you as their guide. You should understand that these weaknesses are caused by fear and self-regret.


Everyone loves to hang out with me.

Which Sesame Street Character Are You?

heh, that's funny, Ernie was the only Sesame Street character that really annoyed me when I was younger.

Saturday, February 16, 2002

Waterboy711Style: i am dl really bad songs
AprilMaieOktovar: ah, that's not good
Waterboy711Style: i now, all these 80's songs
AprilMaieOktovar: psh
AprilMaieOktovar: why?
Waterboy711Style: i saw an infomericial saying it was good
AprilMaieOktovar: hehe =P

Thursday, February 14, 2002

Agh, since I can only sign on for 3-minute periods, I'm gonna blog. It's a bunch less annoying and much easier to hide =)

I wonder what would happen if I died in a dream...would I dream of the afterlife, wake up, yell like crazy, or actually pass some spiritual barrier? Also, if I really enjoyed falling, would I enjoy my fall off a cliff until the last second before death? I once dreamed I jumped off an airplane (with my dad and brother, i think). Oh yea, while jumping, without a parachute, i continually yelled "wheeeeeeeeeeee! ^_^". Anyway, I almost allowed myself to land on a concrete roof, but I chickened out and blinked; i opened my eyes to a slew of cushions on the roof. I knew I was dreaming, and I knew that I wasn't ready to die, in real life or in my dream world. Ah, don't worry, I'll get around to it one of these days.

sigh...i am worthy for neither life nor death. And, for some of you, I'm just not worthy.

Saturday, February 09, 2002

why is it so often that things i expect to turn out well result horribly, and things i expect to result horribly turn out well? Is such life or am I just a horrible judge of situation? Ah well.

For every compliment I give, I hafta make at least 5 sarcastic meaningless jokes to make up for it, probably to save myself from embarassment. Hey, it works, although I unintentionally cheapen my compliments that way. sorry about that.

Mmmm, I wish I could speak my parents' tongue. I hate not being able to understand conversations in Tagalog; I'm a foreigner in my parents' homes. Unfortunately, I quit learning Tagalog when I was in kindergarten =( My mom had forgotten to tell me that Tagalog and English were two separate languages, so my kindergarten teacher became pissed with me. Ha, whoops. Really, it's a shame.

Friday, February 08, 2002

If the background appears bright purple, I'm sorry; I'm used to the high res. on this comp. I'll try and fix it a bit later.
Waha, cute.

What Video Game Character Are You? I am Mr Do.I am Mr Do.

I am sedentary by nature, enjoying passive entertainment, eating when the mood takes me, and playing with my food. I try to avoid conflict, but when I'm angered, I can be a devil - if you force me to fight, I will crush you. With apples. What Video Game Character Are You?

Thursday, February 07, 2002

Something interesting... when we learn new things, we create new connections between neurons in our brain. According to my anatomy (biology) teacher, comedians are smart due to the fact that they are able to quickly call up connections between things that aren't normally related.

**warning? religious ...speak?
I know I'm a bit late, but my pastor said something that really hit home on Sunday. He said that God is not a magical formula for happiness, nor a cosmic gumball machine that takes prayers as payment. God fills his followers with blessedness, which is not to be confused with earthly happiness. That's why He says the meek, the destitute, the mourning, etc. etc. will be blessed.

Back in black. Is it possible that all my philosophical ramblings and reasonings are just excuses for my true thoughts? Am I denying my shallow thoughts to myself? Am I so conceited that I believe my thoughts aren't so vain, base, and vile as natural instinct? Yes, I think so.

I've circled into thinking I'm slightly above average; I used to think I was insignificant, then a "unique individual." My grades and my looks are slightly above average, and every musician who's heard me knows that my piano skills are only slightly above average. My writing? Maybe slightly above average, if not less. I'd like to think I'm a genius, almost as smart as any of ya'll reading this, but I know I'm only slightly above average; I'm nowhere near the high caliber of my friends.

It's off to dinner for me. Yummy seafood and spaghetti...yuuuuummmm. Tonight was/is most probably my last night online cuz my dad's going to be too happy about my only slightly above average gpa. ::sigh:: blog a bit more later, after dinner.

Sunday, February 03, 2002

This one's for Vicky and Brendan =P

click to take the test!

Which L'Arc~en~Ciel Member Are You?