Sunday, October 28, 2001

This weekend was pretty neato =) On Friday, I saw my mom during one of her monthly visits. We went out and celebrated my birthday, yaay. She gave me a lot of nice crap for my birthday =) which made me feel special.

Saturday morning....MUN rummage sale and Ecology Club clean-up. Pfff, I still don't know what possessed MUN to have a rummage sale at 6:30 in the morning. Crazy. I was suprised; only a few people showed up for the ecology club clean-up. The second shift was fun, after I finally hopped that darn fence behind the baseball field. That made it all worthwhile =) Saturday evening I spent with Chris, Brendan, and Linda. Fun stuff; we should do that more often. The show was alright, but all I could think about during the show were the OCHSA shows. Now THOSE were great. I miss OCHSA. Like Samin said, Los Al was better with OCHSA around, especially with all the "interesting characters" we were able to meet.

I went bowling with Sarah today. She's changed. She admits she's not as flamboyant and hyper as she was a couple months ago, probably because she's become a techie (no, not trekkie). We tried DDR for the first time =P ....i don't wanna say anything else on that subject.

Took the fairy test =) Fairly interesting.

Gossamer Catdancer

A playful stalker of small animals.

Seen When
Only when the bees swarm and the crickets chirrup.

In spiderwebbed wonderlands and insect grottos.

Thursday, October 25, 2001

I don't blog often enough for Kevin, so I'll make this blog a slightly longer one.

My finger is suffering from slight edema, and i don't know why =(

Sarah came by on my birthday, carrying a crapload of gifts as she always does. When we finally got to talking, I realized how much she's changed over the years. When we were young, we used to play warriors in the trees, climbing around like monkeys. Now, she has a boyfriend, and all she talks about is making out with him. Granted, it's interesting conversation, but I miss the talks about random worlds we created or mystical magic never discovered. I still have my role-playing gear in my room; random sticks, spices, dried leaves, fake money, and jewelry we created. Now my life seems less, well, creative. I no longer make perfume from neighborhood flowers or draw crappy pictures to sell for nickels as I did in my childhood. I seem useless. My selling tactics have diminished with age, for who wants to buy bad pictures from a fifteen-year-old girl? We used to send a little boy around to sell random things for myself and my friends. =P Anyway, I'm glad Sarah came over; we've changed more than I'd like to think.

I really can't stand unearned praise >.< For example, if someone says I'm pretty (which, of course, no-one does), I become annoyed. It bugs me just as much as someone who is making fun of my brother. When people praise my piano skill, I become annoyed because I know I have no piano skill. Gaaaaah.

Wednesday, October 24, 2001

Aaaaaaaaacck, my dad became reaaaaally pissed at me for going to MUN last night =( He said I was in too many clubs, and may now forcibly remove me from some of them >.< Dooooooooooooh =( I like all the clubs I'm in! No fair.

Anyway, today's my birthday. Yay. Thanks Brendan and Chris for sending me birthday e-mails at one in the morning =D I really appreciate it =) You people are the bestest.

Eaaaa, today Sarah, my alleged best friend, is coming to visit. =) This should be interesting.

Tuesday, October 23, 2001

Installed BlogBack. I don't expect a lot of comments because my posts aren't as philisophical as most people's, but I'm interested in what people hafta say, if anything. Besides, I have nothing better to do at 2 am =P

Monday, October 22, 2001

Cold and wallowing in self-pity, I'm softly exhaling the melody of Chopin's Op. 10 No.6.......shhhhhhhhh....

Sunday, October 21, 2001

Back from MUN, finally =) Ack, my chairs cheated me of some points, but I guess I don't really mind, since I did little to no research. Ah well ^_^ I did talk to Kevin for a while, which was neaaaaaaaaaatooooooooooooooooooo belito =D That's one of the main reasons I didn't ditch MUN. The other reason is Edison = scholarships. =P That's sorta important. Ugh, too disconcerted to blog coherently; I'll try again later.

Friday, October 19, 2001

Went to Knott's Scary Farm yesterday =) Fun fun! ^_^ I got there a little late, though, cuz I kinda took the wrong bus there =P Yeeeeep, stupid april. They all pitched in and paid for my ticket in honor of my birthday =D Yaaaaaaay!! =) Unfortunately, we missed the last bus and were forced to walk part of the way home =( I hope Anna and Lisa aren't in too much trouble.... my dad chewed me out for being half an hour late...... Ugh.
Ack, the 4 girls out of the 12 people that went were supposed to be "bonding," but that really didn't happen too much. The only people who had a bonding experience were Beverly and Andy, as well as Anna and Erico / Lisa and Erico. oooooooh wellllllllllllllll, maybe another time. We also missed seeing Khushboo and Neha =( Darn naggit!

Wednesday, October 17, 2001

Eaaaagh, not ready for the Ecology Club meeting tomorrow! Erk.

Starting on college essays would be a good idea, huh..... =P

Monday, October 15, 2001

While walking to church...
Grandma: By the time we get there, we'll stink! Let us not sit near those white people.

Later, after my brother and i asked her to further explain......
Grandma: They don't like us because we are brown.

O.O O.K.....

Sunday, October 14, 2001

::sigh:: brendan, if you're going to stay off aim, at least install reblogger so we can directly respond to your posts =(
Linda's blog is heck-a interesting! =) Since I'm not as computer-friendly as the rest of you, i'll just put up her web address instead of linking it: It's iiiiiiinteresting!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and the los al blog trend continues! =D hehehe

Oh yea, I wanna group blog...maybe that would be interesting too
Homecoming was.....interesting. I don't think I want to go to another dance unless it's with a guy i've like for a while or it's with a bunch of friends (kinda like this time). Some parts were SO MUCH FUUUUN, and others were AAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRGGGGGGHHHHHH. The DJ played the same music the whole time =( The only variance in music was the oldies music =) which was neato. My head is still muddled, which is why I'm blogging in short and choppy sentences; I'm sorry. Eaaagh. Music toooooo louuuuud. All the people that tried to dance with me I hit by ACCIDENT, just so you people know =P I'm not as confrontational as people think, unless it has to do with my BROTHER. YOU MAKE FUN OF MY BROTHER, YOU FEEL THE WRATH OF APRIL!!!! although my wrath may not be strong, it's passionate =P Iggggh, back to jeans and a t-shirt on monday ^_^

Saturday, October 13, 2001

I'm going to that a good or a bad thing? I'm only going because of peer pressure =P No joke....and my friends didn't want me to bring a date (it's a group of about 10 girls.) Well, I guess it'll be fun. =) Especially since I'll be with good friends the whole time =D

Friday, October 12, 2001

Ayayayayay. Ugh, one day, I'm going to be a parent (maybe) and no matter what I do, my teenager will think I'm a horrible horrible horrible person at some point or another, and I'll think my teen is a horrible horrible horrible spoiled brat. Is it like this with every generation? =( Daaaaaaaaang, maybe I'll sell my children, or put them up for adoption before they're 13 (I'm just kidding you people)

Thursday, October 11, 2001

Hey AprilMaieOktovar
Computer- $999
Internet Provider- $40 a month
AIM Service -free
An Away Message from me - Pricless

Oy, what an ego :P
I have to disagree with colin, reasons for love can be explained. Although I don't like to admit it, my parents, my friends, and my society have great influence over who I love. I want to say," I love that guy because he's akin to me and only me and we're right only for each other!" but that, unfortunately, is not true. The person I love has to fit my criteria, whatever their dimensions may be. Good family background, intelligent, funny, etc. etc. etc. Those seem like reasonable things to want in a guy, or so I have been taught by my upbringing. Different women prefer different guy because their dimensions for the perfect guy are different. Not all aspects of love can be explained, but not because we cannot, but because we are either too lazy or unable to determine or express these reasons. I remember reading Cave of the Moving Shadows (yea, i know, think back to 5-7th grade), in which the protagonist loves someone, but has no words to express his love. His language had no word for love, no use for love. I suppose there are still some aspects of love which have no word, but are rational.

Love really doesn't seem so great or wonderful to me....then again, maybe I haven't truely experienced love yet. I've been surpressing my feelings due to my filipino background and lack of self-esteem? =P Possibly. Love, for right now, seems like a pain that I'm forced to endure. Are all the butterflies in my stomach that magically appear when I see a certain person supposed to be a pleasureable feeling? All it does is make me want to go to the bathroom. To urinate (in case you couldn't figure it out the first time). It seems like a boatload of extra trouble to go out of my way to see him during passing periods, or force myself to talk to him during school. I don't like when my thoughts become muddled, but that happens every time I'm around him. When I'm married, am I going to seem both illiterate and mentally stupid because I love my husband so much? Geez, I hope not.

Anyway, I'll shaddup now.

It IS pretty interesting to cry and play piano at the same time (YOU, shaddup, and you, and you, and HEY! you too! Linda, stop laughing. =P) There's nothing wrong with it!!! (says me)

Brendan: Los Al B team will kick some serious butt! Hopefully =D Of course, it's cuz andrew's there. ^_^ Robin and LINDA too! oh yea.....scott too.....i guess... =P

Oy...pianos with ivory keys make me so sad ....=( ::sniffle:: my piano has ivory keys >.< (yes linda, i do hear your shouts of "envirofreak" in the background)
These posts are from a couple days ago.....

Every time I have a piano lesson, it's like a reawakening. My interested in piano is rekindled every week. I suppose my interest wanes slightly during the week, but only if I've finished all the material on which I'm learning.

My friends want me to go to homecoming, but to not bring a date. datte....datte........hrrrrrrrm. =D

I really like this Mai Kuraki CD! It's super neato.

Drat, I really wanted to go to UC Essay Information night! I wish I had my liscence..... =(
(I did actually end up going)

Saturday, October 06, 2001

Wooooooow, Linda's reaaaaally had fun at aqt today =) I had tons of fun too, but my 4-hour headache really put a damper on things.

Things I need to look over and review:
country placement
absolom, o absolom
death of a salesman
donald duck math movie

i chose all the more interesting things ^_^ keep myself interested

note to self: 75 cents to robin on monday

Friday, October 05, 2001

I keep typing ""

Hmmmmmmmm.....there was something I wanted to blog about, but I don't remember what it was......ah well, life goes on.

Heeey, I figured out how to make omelettes without having to dement the shape! ^_^ I'm so wonderful =P

Awwww, I wanted to go to Les Mis =( Can't make it on Saturday at 2:00 PM >.<

Savor each moment of life, even the painful ones. Yummy.

Thursday, October 04, 2001

Every time I looked at my fruity background, I became hungry. I can't eat rocks, unfortunately, so I'm using the rocks as my new template =)

Wednesday, October 03, 2001

Look, a pencil!!!!! No way
Hmmmmmm.....if all guys are evil, then my brother is evil, so that makes me evil if I protect my evil brother. My brother isn't evil, so obviously, all guys aren't evil (yes, it is obvious, my brother is a guy despite the various claims of charles and brendan).
Ugh, I hate trying to be someone I'm not. I don't even notice I'm trying until after I find out I'm not as informed as I think I am. Why can't I take me for me instead of trying to patent my personality to fit into groups I shouldn't be in anyway? Right now I want to draw into myself, to shut out the rest of the world and create illusions only I can see. Ea, time to play Chopin Etude Op. 10 No. 6! Nyeh =P I can't stay depressed for long no matter how hard I try! Dammit, it's not fair ^_^ I guess I'll try and be a little more selfish. I don't want anyone to dislike me in any way, so I end up changing my personality to fit others. I need to bring out more of my own.

Monday, October 01, 2001

guysareevilguysareevilguysareevilguysareevil and

phew! thanks, i needed that. =)