Monday, September 16, 2002
Oh, right, maybe it's a good thing i may not be around for most of my step-sibling's life... i'm such a crappy sister... =P No, really... I do such mean things to andrew... i dunno how he puts up with me... I antagonize him for my own amusement (and he thinks i'm serious), I'm especially sarcastic towards him because he hates it, i interrupt him (because it particularly annoys him), i yell for no reason (just to piss him off), i can create hysteria while he's working (i did that once when his contact became stuck in his eye.... now he won't wear contacts... i don't know whether those two facts are correlated, but i'm blaming myself anyway), i insult him when i'm angry (someone remind me to tell him that i'm not serious when i say things; he oftentimes takes me seriously when i'm not, and blows me off when i'm being serious), i'm messy, blah blah blah blah blah blah blah. I'm sure the list of grievances against myself against my brother goes on and on, but thinking about it makes me want to smack myself in the head harder than i just have. Whoooooops, i forgot why i was up... test today. >.<, ha.
Sunday, September 15, 2002
Yay, my uncle came and visited today =) He's having problems at home and is going to be coming here 'bout every week or so. With my grandma home, my step-mom around, seka's continuous calls, sean's random calls, the continual mention of my aunts', and my uncle's frequent visits, I'm getting a stronger sense of family...it's great! =D
I'm so lucky...
Hum... I was listening to my dad and my uncle talk things over and i, again, came to the conclusion that HUMANS ARE CRUEL. And i wonder if this works... i am cruel, therefore, i'm human? nah, that doesn't work. does it?
On a different note (yea?), I think the reason the new-child thing is so shocking to me is because my dad was continually insulting her and talking about sending my step-mom back to the Philippines. Of course, that's out of the question now. =)
I'm so lucky...
Hum... I was listening to my dad and my uncle talk things over and i, again, came to the conclusion that HUMANS ARE CRUEL. And i wonder if this works... i am cruel, therefore, i'm human? nah, that doesn't work. does it?
On a different note (yea?), I think the reason the new-child thing is so shocking to me is because my dad was continually insulting her and talking about sending my step-mom back to the Philippines. Of course, that's out of the question now. =)
Friday, September 13, 2002
today i found out that my step-mom will be two months pregnant on September 30th.
wow. hummm.... i'm all mixed-feeling-ed.... having a new little brother/sister when i'm already 18... strange. I'd like the situation much better if my brother and I weren't possibly leaving in a couple years; I don't like the idea of being the big sister younger sibling never sees, hardly knows, and never is around. How can I be supportive if I'm not living in the same house (supportive in my idea of immediate family)? Although I doubt that I will be as close to my step-sibling as my brother (practically every day is a day of bonding), I'd like to be around for his/her childhood.
Sigh, blah, perhaps I'm being selfish. I want to be a part of too many peoples' lives. I don't know if I even have the capability to care for so many people; I wonder if there is a limit to the amount (quantity and intensity) of love a person can give. With myself, i wouldn't be surprised. With some others, i would be shocked. Hum. I suppose time would be one of the greater restrictions... there seems to be a limited amount of time I want to donate to people before wanting to be by myself.
I don't know. Maybe I'm jealous that my brother and i won't be my dad's little ones any more. Maybe I'm pre-assuming too much responsibility. If I worry over her/him as much as i worry over andrew, i'm going to worry myself to death, considering andrew doesn't do much to worry anyone and I'm still worry wart-ing. Andrew obviously takes better care of himself than i do of myself, but still... i can't help it...
I wonder how this child is going to grow up, virtually an only child (i mean, no peer consistantly around to relate to) and father already 54. I want to stay and help my parents out for the next 17 years, but, simultaneously, I'd love to be away. Crazy.
wow. hummm.... i'm all mixed-feeling-ed.... having a new little brother/sister when i'm already 18... strange. I'd like the situation much better if my brother and I weren't possibly leaving in a couple years; I don't like the idea of being the big sister younger sibling never sees, hardly knows, and never is around. How can I be supportive if I'm not living in the same house (supportive in my idea of immediate family)? Although I doubt that I will be as close to my step-sibling as my brother (practically every day is a day of bonding), I'd like to be around for his/her childhood.
Sigh, blah, perhaps I'm being selfish. I want to be a part of too many peoples' lives. I don't know if I even have the capability to care for so many people; I wonder if there is a limit to the amount (quantity and intensity) of love a person can give. With myself, i wouldn't be surprised. With some others, i would be shocked. Hum. I suppose time would be one of the greater restrictions... there seems to be a limited amount of time I want to donate to people before wanting to be by myself.
I don't know. Maybe I'm jealous that my brother and i won't be my dad's little ones any more. Maybe I'm pre-assuming too much responsibility. If I worry over her/him as much as i worry over andrew, i'm going to worry myself to death, considering andrew doesn't do much to worry anyone and I'm still worry wart-ing. Andrew obviously takes better care of himself than i do of myself, but still... i can't help it...
I wonder how this child is going to grow up, virtually an only child (i mean, no peer consistantly around to relate to) and father already 54. I want to stay and help my parents out for the next 17 years, but, simultaneously, I'd love to be away. Crazy.
Monday, August 26, 2002
note to self: in the fairy hills?
heard on 91.5, as an introduction to a Haydn symphony
some stories are too good to be true, but this one is completely real. The audience rushes up to a composer in order to congratulate him on his work, and a great chandelier comes crashing down where the audience was previously sitting.... This isn't the symphony [that the story correlates to], but... who cares. Haydn's Miracle Symphony.
hahahahaha, that still cracks me up.
'course, not word for word... my memory is horrible (to which Steve can attest).
heard on 91.5, as an introduction to a Haydn symphony
some stories are too good to be true, but this one is completely real. The audience rushes up to a composer in order to congratulate him on his work, and a great chandelier comes crashing down where the audience was previously sitting.... This isn't the symphony [that the story correlates to], but... who cares. Haydn's Miracle Symphony.
hahahahaha, that still cracks me up.
'course, not word for word... my memory is horrible (to which Steve can attest).
Tuesday, August 20, 2002
one of my best friends just told me that he/she has cancer.
my aunt, who is not, by any means, rich, just had a liposuction... yes, she does have a child to send through college in 5 years or so.
my good friend is moving away, and he's hating the hell out of it.
I'm wrestling with my own stupid emotions.
today isn't the best of days.
my aunt, who is not, by any means, rich, just had a liposuction... yes, she does have a child to send through college in 5 years or so.
my good friend is moving away, and he's hating the hell out of it.
I'm wrestling with my own stupid emotions.
today isn't the best of days.
Tuesday, August 13, 2002
The Path to Obesity... is a swift yet tireless one. Yes, there are some sacrifices to be made, i.e. joints, some relationships, running, underwear, etc. etc. However, once you look past those petty sacrifices, you will find a path to greatness!
WHAT??!?!, you say?
If you are giving obesity, you are a heartless bastard pawning sweet and cholesterol-full temptations baked by the devil. If you are receiving obesity, you are most obviously a victim and ought to be pitied and cherished by mankind. Therefore, the less horrible of mankind, in its hypocritical loving way, will ostracize those who ostracize you and "cherish" you in hopes of ridding you of your "eating disorder." Fortunately for you, this causes more intake of food, making for a greater step in the path to obesity.
If you give and receive obesity, you are a most cherished bastard.
... I have not a CLUE what i'm talking about.
WHAT??!?!, you say?
If you are giving obesity, you are a heartless bastard pawning sweet and cholesterol-full temptations baked by the devil. If you are receiving obesity, you are most obviously a victim and ought to be pitied and cherished by mankind. Therefore, the less horrible of mankind, in its hypocritical loving way, will ostracize those who ostracize you and "cherish" you in hopes of ridding you of your "eating disorder." Fortunately for you, this causes more intake of food, making for a greater step in the path to obesity.
If you give and receive obesity, you are a most cherished bastard.
... I have not a CLUE what i'm talking about.
censored: you tard
AprilMaieOktovar: GIANT TARD
censored: OBESE
AprilMaieOktovar: I'M A FREAKIN GIANT FREAK OF NATURE
censored: GOOD LORD
censored: GO EAT SOME KASHI
AprilMaieOktovar: WHY HAS THE GOOD LORD MADE ME?
AprilMaieOktovar: IF IT IS NOT TO EAT KASHI?
censored: YOU ATE HIM
AprilMaieOktovar: OH MY GOD
AprilMaieOktovar: HOLY CRAP!!
censored: LITERALLY.
AprilMaieOktovar: I MUST PRAY TO MY TOILET
censored: PRAY TO YOUR STOMACH AND YOUR OBESITY
censored: YOU.. YOU... GOD EATER!
( to spare the ...pride?--wait, no, GIGANTIC EGO (yes, yes, i kid) of the other 'tard in the conversation, his/her/its name has been...well, duh.)
this conversation was brought to you by samin's camping word of the day: obese. OBESE! it's a way of living. ::nudge nudge:: yes, khushi and i have perfected the art of living as OBESE people. amaze (stolen from kevin hsu).
...so, when do i getta visit the mental institution?
AprilMaieOktovar: GIANT TARD
censored: OBESE
AprilMaieOktovar: I'M A FREAKIN GIANT FREAK OF NATURE
censored: GOOD LORD
censored: GO EAT SOME KASHI
AprilMaieOktovar: WHY HAS THE GOOD LORD MADE ME?
AprilMaieOktovar: IF IT IS NOT TO EAT KASHI?
censored: YOU ATE HIM
AprilMaieOktovar: OH MY GOD
AprilMaieOktovar: HOLY CRAP!!
censored: LITERALLY.
AprilMaieOktovar: I MUST PRAY TO MY TOILET
censored: PRAY TO YOUR STOMACH AND YOUR OBESITY
censored: YOU.. YOU... GOD EATER!
( to spare the ...pride?--wait, no, GIGANTIC EGO (yes, yes, i kid) of the other 'tard in the conversation, his/her/its name has been...well, duh.)
this conversation was brought to you by samin's camping word of the day: obese. OBESE! it's a way of living. ::nudge nudge:: yes, khushi and i have perfected the art of living as OBESE people. amaze (stolen from kevin hsu).
...so, when do i getta visit the mental institution?
Monday, August 12, 2002
Wednesday, August 07, 2002
Monday, July 29, 2002
Monday, July 15, 2002
I was listening to my brother's Tenchi Muyo! CDs in the car, and I came across this song again ... =P Washu's neato keen!
Sit back and listen to this song that I'm singin',
Photon, proton, synchroton are interesting
Science is better than love can ever be
Falling in love is based on chaotic theory!
Emotions are exhausting,
Quantum mechanics never ever make you frown
With scientific methods,
Imaginary walls will come tumbling down, yeah!
Yay!
Sit back and listen to this song that I'm singin',
Photon, proton, synchroton are interesting
Science is better than love can ever be
Falling in love is based on chaotic theory!
Emotions are exhausting,
Quantum mechanics never ever make you frown
With scientific methods,
Imaginary walls will come tumbling down, yeah!
Yay!
Saturday, July 06, 2002
Tuesday, July 02, 2002
Thursday, June 27, 2002
Tuesday, June 18, 2002
yay! excited =P
When: Sunday, June 23, 2002
Where: Neil's house
Who: Wait and See
What: Watching Anime and animation
10:00 Up Stairs: Tenchi Movie: Tenchi in Love 1
Down Stairs: DDR
10:30 Down Stairs: DBZ Movie 13
11:30 Up Stairs-Three Computer: Neon Genesis Evangelion 1-26
Up Stairs: Tenchi Movie: Daughter of Darkness
Down Stairs: Outlaw Star-1-3
12:00 Lunch
1:00 Up Stairs: Mystery Movie aka Metroplosis/Princess Mononoke/Ninja Scroll
Down Stairs: DDR
3:00 Up Stairs: Akira
Down Stairs: Whatever
6:00 Dinner
7:00 Up Stairs: Shrek
Down Stairs: DBZ Movie 7
8:30 Shaved Ice Eating Contest/Leaving Time
When: Sunday, June 23, 2002
Where: Neil's house
Who: Wait and See
What: Watching Anime and animation
10:00 Up Stairs: Tenchi Movie: Tenchi in Love 1
Down Stairs: DDR
10:30 Down Stairs: DBZ Movie 13
11:30 Up Stairs-Three Computer: Neon Genesis Evangelion 1-26
Up Stairs: Tenchi Movie: Daughter of Darkness
Down Stairs: Outlaw Star-1-3
12:00 Lunch
1:00 Up Stairs: Mystery Movie aka Metroplosis/Princess Mononoke/Ninja Scroll
Down Stairs: DDR
3:00 Up Stairs: Akira
Down Stairs: Whatever
6:00 Dinner
7:00 Up Stairs: Shrek
Down Stairs: DBZ Movie 7
8:30 Shaved Ice Eating Contest/Leaving Time
Thursday, June 13, 2002
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